That boy

That one boy who runs through your mind constantly. When your phone rings, you wish its him everytime, and when it is, you drop everything your doing just to text him back right away but then sit and wait for a response for two hours. That one boy that puts a smile on your face just looking at you. That one boy that your still in love with no matter how hard you try to get away. That one boy that no one comes close to being comparable. That one boy you miss with your whole heart.
That one boy you would do anything to get back.

Those days

Don't you just hate those days when nothing goes right and all you wanna do is lay in bed and cry? Ya, me too. But of course your scheduled to work right. So the thought of putting on your fake ass smile and acting like nothing is wrong just makes you want to cry even more. Then people are asking if you're Ohkayy and being all nice, but again...it just makes you want to cry.
Well, its one of those days...

What's the reason?

People always say "Everything Happens for a Reason." I am one of those people.  I truely believe that in life, everything does happen for a reason. But you always wonder, what is the reason??

Today, me and a close friend of mine got into a big fight. Over a rumor. That's not true, nor did I start it. Awesome, I know.  My "friend" is accusing me of telling people that her and her ex are hanging out and talking when she has a boyfriend. Which is false. Never told anyone. Cool I know.

Also, the guy in my life, who is all that is on my mind.  Last year we dated and I fell MADLY in love with him.  He made me feel like I was the only girl in the world and when I was with him, nothing else mattered.  Typical teenage girl in love.  But we didn't break up because of a fight, we broke up because of age.  20 yr olds APPARENTLY can't be with 16 yr olds.  Granted at that age, 4 years is alot; but, when I'm 18, he'll be 22....not exactly a big deal.  So his parents found out we were dating and decided that could not/ should not be happening.  So they made us end it.  After that, I ended up having his father as my gym teacher.  Lets just say his father knows a few...personal....things about me and his son. ;) ha. But anywho, I still love him. We still talk alot. I still get jealous when I know he's talking to other girls.  I would do ANYTHING to get him back. Down the road I'll probably understand everything that has happened much better. But for right now, I just want to know...

What's the reason for my pain???